Celebrations

Breckenridge, Colorado knows how to celebrate Independence Day. I don't think I've ever had such a great time on the 4th of July. We started the day at our realtor's office on Main St. Each year, she hosts a parade party and invites all of her clients. She mixed up a huge batch of Bloody Marys and made sure that everyone had a cup in hand, and she placed seating right out at the curb and reserved all of the spaces for us. Breckenridge's parade is pretty big, and it seems that just about anyone can enter it. I especially liked the wedding float. A couple got married last night, and they stayed up all night with their bridal party and were in the parade this morning. Everyone was still in tuxes and gowns, and the bride and groom were pulled behind a truck in a trailer made up to look like a canopy bed. A few men were dressed up in 1860s clothing and staged a shoot-out in front of one of the old saloons. And everyone threw candy. We had a great time helping three kids grab up all the goodies.

We've never stayed here for 4th of July. We either vacate for our long-term renters by now or we just spend more time in the early part of June. I think after the parade today and the fireworks tonight, though, we're going to make this part of our annual trip. I really didn't have a lot of hope for the Breckenridge fireworks display. I don't know why I didn't, but I just assumed it would be small. We left the condo at 8:00 and headed downtown. The National Repertory Orchestra was giving a free concert before the fireworks, so we parked right near where the fireworks were supposed to go off, and we walked to the Riverwalk Center to catch a little of the NRO's performance. It gets pretty cool in Breckenridge at night, normally falling into the low 40s, so we were pretty chilled when we got back to the car. We parked in the perfect position to watch the fireworks from the car, and when they started, I knew I was completely wrong about what kind of show they could put on. It really was spectacular. There were moments when the night sky was so lit up with sparkling golden showers that it was as if every star was visible. Absolutely stunning, and a perfect end to a really good day.

When It Rains

A pretty impressive storm rolled in last night. I don't recall ever seeing lightning out here in years past, but I've never really seen much rain here, for that matter. I saw in the newspaper this morning that we were due for another set of afternoon thunderstorms, but that didn't seem to provide enough motivation for us to get moving and out sooner.

I'll just have to be perfectly honest. I had a panic attack today. It wasn't the sky to ground lightning splitting the scene in front of us as we drove. It wasn't the hail that beat on my car while we sat in the parking area waiting for the storm to pass or what seemed to be a thin layer of ice covering all of the car windows. The attack was a direct result of the treacherous 9.6 mile drive up to our hike for the day.

Rich is not a careful driver. I had the horrible luck of sitting in the passenger seat as he drove way too fast (15 mph) up a gravel road that was frequently only wide enough for one car and had sharp turns that eliminated all ability to see if a car was coming toward us. On several occasions, the tires on the right side of the car were no more than a foot away from a 2,000 ft. drop off. Rich kept claiming that if we were run off of the road, the Aspens would stop the car. The Aspens! These are not Sequoias or Redwoods. Spindly, pathetic (although beautiful) Aspens. Bah. The 9.6 miles might as well have been 175 miles. It just never seemed like we were going to get there. And then I started to get really sick, which is the lovely side-effect of the panic attack. And I can't be convinced that my hair wasn't very near igniting. When we finally got to the parking area and the hail started coming down, I had to decide if I could calm myself down or if I should just rush out of the car into the downpour to evacuate everything I've eaten in the last few days. Fear of the lightning convinced me to calm down.

Once the storm passed over, I was feeling worn out from all of my emotional exertion, but I was ready for a good hike. Our goal was to make the saddle between Mt. Boreas and Mt. Baldy. The ultimate elevation was 12,176 ft. The wildflowers were magnificent. I can't count how many varieties we saw, and the best part was that most of the wildflowers grow right along a mountain stream. The trail keeps to the stream then entire way. So we had the soothing sound of the water and the stunning flowers to keep our minds off of our pounding hearts. Each time we turned around, we caught our breath while gazing at the mountain panorama. Worth the drive up? I'm still not sure.

I had this great idea that we would do this hike today and then another day return to summit Mt. Baldy at 13,600+ feet another day. I'm sure I could make the summit without too much difficulty, but how am I going to get up that horrible road again?

At Last (Reprise)

No hiking today. No wildflower viewing today. No crepes. Instead, I spent 5 hours in the car, making the roundtrip from Breckenridge to Denver. It's not that the trip is 2 1/2 hours each way. I was able to stop at Whole Foods in Denver before I headed to the airport. After departing the airport, we stopped at Pets Mart to pick up more munchies for the dogs. So the trip is actually 1 1/2 hours each way. I just had some detours along the way.

If you noted the pronoun shift from singular to plural, you may guess the reason for my title for today's post and why such a long day in the car was more than worth it. I picked up Rich (my sweetie) finally. He's spending the rest of the time out here with us. When we're ready to go back to Michigan, we'll be dropping him off at the airport and continuing on our cross-country drive. Until that sad day, I'm so excited to have him with me again.

Tomorrow will be a tough day for me. He's my best friend. I absolutely love doing things with him. So I'll want to dive right into hiking with him; I've even planned for us to go kayaking one day. But tomorrow will require restraint, yet another attribute I have in short supply. He's been traveling since 4:30 this morning, so he's really tired. Add altitude to that, and you have a guy who probably needs to take it easy tomorrow. So another opportunity for me to try and develop more palatable personality traits. Patience-blah. Selflessness-yuck. Generosity-pshaw.

Okay, lots of growing to do still...

Day Off

We didn't take a day off from our adventures today, but I need a day off from the blog. I'll hopefully be back in my usual form tomorrow...

Day of Delights

I'm a sucker for Sunday brunch. Mom and I browsed through the Breckenridge Dining Guide when we arrived last week, and we were both trying to find a place that offered something different for brunch. Looking through the paper the next day, an ad caught my eye. Le Petit Paris Bistrot was scheduled to begin its Sunday brunch service today. Earlier in the week, I stopped by the restaurant and spoke to the owner about the menu, and mom and I quickly decided that we would have to be two of their first patrons.

We started with a basket of fresh baked brioche, croissant, and pain de chocolat. Heaven. Every time I touched my croissant, it seemed to fall into deliciously buttery vellum flakes. I gave my pain de chocolate a kiss of raspberry jam, and closed my eyes as the bitterness of the chocolate mingled with the sweet tartness of the jam in my mouth.

For our main course, mom selected the Eggs Florentine, Benedict style, and fries. The dish was essentially a meatless version of Eggs Benedict, replacing the ham for spinach. She said it was perfect. The fries hardly looked like fries at all. They seemed to be golden thin curls of potato, perhaps made with a vegetable peeler. They were the perfect combination of crisp on the outside and soft on the inside, with just the right amount of salt. I had the Crepe du Jour, which was a crepe filled with mushroom, scallion, and swiss, topped with an olive tapenade. I couldn't pass up those gorgeous "fries" myself. Everything was so beautifully plated, so perfectly made. The crepes were the best I've tasted, and I will say that I've had crepes in Paris. The main course came with our choice of mimosa, sangria, or Bloody Mary. I went with the Bloody Mary, and it, too, was the best I've ever had. It was thick, and the horseradish flecked the deep red with white. It was spicy, too, the heat lingering at the back of my throat. Mom enjoyed her sangria, which she said was not as sweet as some sangrias are, which is exactly as the restaurant's owner intended. She said she wanted the wine to still be present, that "it's not supposed to be punch," and she's right.

So the meal was delicious, but I have to say that the owner may have been the highlight for us. She is absolutely precious, so kind, attentive, sweet. It was clear that she truly wanted us to have a special brunch at her restaurant. I heard her talking to her staff, too, and I could tell that she had a great rapport with them. When we left, she caught us just as we had stepped out of the door. She wanted to be sure that we had found the experience pleasurable and unique. She pressed her hand in mine when I told her that it was wonderful and that she made the best Bloody Mary, and I thought that this is one of those really great people you sometimes have the luck to run into. As mom and I walked to the car, that sweet woman and her wonderful food was all we could talk about.

When we got back to the condo, we prepared the dogs and headed for the car. We decided to spend the rest of the afternoon at the Vail Farmer's Market. It was a lovely day for driving, and the scenery was, as always, stunning. It's rather early in the season for any produce other than cherries, lettuce, and beets, and the prices on the produce at these markets have been exorbitant. But we got to walk around Vail village, people stopping us frequently to fawn over my beautiful dogs (outfitted in bandannas for the occasion). We also saw a lot of fascinating hand crafted items and lovely lawn sculptures that rotated in the breeze. I think I may need something like these in my garden at home. After all, what else is that wretched Michigan wind good for?

It was a good day in the mountains for us, and it ended with the sunset seen from our deck I've posted above. Mom asked what we're doing tomorrow, and I said, "Tomorrow is unwritten. Let's just let it reveal itself to us." And so that's the plan.

Fields of Gold

When I saw the weather report today, my heart sank. Seven consecutive days of thunderstorms stretched across the television screen. The storms for today were due to roll in around 2 pm, so I immediately began shifting my plans. Mom couldn't hike, so the dogs and I left earlier than usual to get some exercise. It was the Gold Hill hike again, largely because it's easy and I never have to worry about getting caught in a storm there. The trees are tightly packed, and I often think it's a relatively safe place to be--certainly safer than a hike above the timberline.

As we started up the first incline, I couldn't free myself of disappointment. I really wanted to try another hike today, but things just didn't seem to be working out. Mom pulled something in her back, so the original plan had to be scrapped. Then the news that we were due for yet another day of rain and storms made me reconsider other options. I walked through the colorful wildflower fields at the lower part of the hike, but I wasn't moved by them. The thunderstorm graphics on the weather channel kept popping up in my mind. In fact, my mood didn't really start to lift until we had to take a break at the swing. Wolfie seemed to be pretty tired, and I was sure that the hike would have to end there again. So I sat on the swing and lamented the demise of my perfect vacation, but the mountains were so pretty that I began to relax.

After Wolfie's breathing slowed, I got up, ready to head back down. I had the dogs on their leashes, and I told Wolfie that he could choose what we would do next. I often do this at home when we start out on a walk, and he actually chooses different routes from one day to the next. When we reached the main trail again, Wolfie made a decisive turn to the left, which took us further up the mountain. That boy always makes the best decisions; this time, his choice took me past vast fields of yellow daisies tucked into the trees, and so he cleared the rest of my clouds.

The rain never did come.

Colorado on the Cheap

Those who know me well know that I tend to be, well, a little cheap. I can spend a fair amount on clothes at Ann Taylor, but spending money on just about anything else makes my stomach muscles tighten. Our mountain exploits today allowed me to keep all muscles relaxed--excepting those required for the minimal hiking.

We knew that we were in for another day of rain. Breckenridge surpassed its average rainfall for the month last week, and while this lessens the potential for fires, it sure does make outdoor adventures a little tricky. We arrived at the Dillon Farmer's Market shortly after it opened in the morning. I wasn't particularly interested in what was offered there; most of it was jewelry vendors. I did, however, get a chance to speak a little German. Two men at a kiosk with a Styria sign were speaking German, and when I walked up, one of them simply said, "Hello." I replied by saying, "Gruess Gott," which is a surefire way of letting an Austrian know that you speak Austrian German. And with that, we were off. So free entertainment for me...I don't know about him.

After that we headed to Dillon Dam Road for a quick scenic hike. I, of course, made one dam joke after another with my mom. I never looked over, but I'm sure she was rolling her eyes. "Don't ask me any dam questions; I'm no dam guide," I insisted. The hike was lovely; wildflowers everywhere again. The top afforded us a different perspective of Lake Dillon. We've already seen it from two vantage points. The first was the Tenderfoot Mountain hike, and the second was the site of Tippy's water adventure. Since the hike was so short, I decided we should get back on the dam road (oops) and head to another easy hike and yet another view of Lake Dillon. It's amazing how many new peaks appear when you take a different perspective.

By the time we finished that ridiculously short walk, I knew that our time in the sun was running short. We drove back into Frisco for a little lunch, and once our carry-out bags were ready, we headed to the car in a torrential downpour. The day seemed to be over.

Back at the condo, we decided that despite the miserable weather, we would drive to Frisco again for a book launch party at the local independent bookstore, The Next Page. When you visit the area, you absolutely must go to this store and pick up something. The staff is friendly and knowledgeable, and the store has a great selection of books and unexpected gifts. The book launch being celebrated was the Junior League of Denver's cookbook, and the owner of the bookstore had the event catered. It featured 10-12 recipes from the cookbook, and it basically became a free and delicious dinner (okay, I did buy a book, but I can never help myself when I go there), and a great stroll around the place. By the time we left, the skies were beautiful again.

Back in Breckenridge, we went downtown to catch a free brass quintet concert from members of the National Repertory Orchestra. We thoroughly enjoyed the 75-minute program, and it really capped off what was a surprisingly perfect day. So maybe even if the storm clouds threaten, I am still capable of working around them. That's good news because we're in for more storms tomorrow...

A Taste of the Good Life

We had to take it easy today; weather and the weariness of my travel buddies made hiking a bad idea. In taking the day off, I think I've discovered something else that Wolfie and I have in common. Wolfie would get up and hike with me no matter how tired or sore, even if it could end up hurting him. He just has to keep moving if I am. But maybe there's one slight difference between the two of us on this point--I just have to keep moving, no matter what Wolfie is doing. Although I enjoyed myself today, I couldn't help noticing a nervous energy building in me. Oh dear, maybe little progress is being made. Maybe hiking all day just keeps my frenetic thoughts at bay, and having to take it easy reveals again how tightly wound I actually am. The news that we're expecting rain again tomorrow nearly put me in panic mode. I don't know what indoor activities can be had here; I've never done any. Hopefully the weatherman is wrong, and we can tamp down my restlessness with a good walk somewhere, but that doesn't necessarily get me further in my journey to a calmer disposition. And so I worry again. I am exactly as advertised in my first post--a first-rate worrier.

We spent part of today just walking around town. Tippy and Wolfie went shopping at one of their favorite stores, The Barkery, but Wolfie seems interested in checking out every store. Who knew my furry son was such a shopper? An open door at any restaurant, too, seemed to be an invitation to him. He was quite popular with the diners, at least. He'd pull me in the direction of a table at the open door, and his new friends would give him a little pat on the head. Little did they know that he had no interest in making their acquaintance and only wanted to make off with their meals. At least he got a taste of our lunch today.

We had lunch at Crepes a la Cart. It's basically a small trailer in the middle of town large enough to hold all necessary ingredients, three crepe griddles, and two workers. In all of the years we've been here, I've never eaten there, even though I've salivated when catching a hint of their wonderful smells floating on the breeze. We decided to get one savory and one sweet and split each. These folks know how to make a good crepe. I have had crepes at what is considered to be the best creperie in London, but they were shockingly greasy. These were the perfect combination of soft and crisp, leaving virtually no butter on the fingers. We started with a white asparagus and hollandaise crepe and finished with a Gateau de St. Honoree, which is a crepe filled with sugar, cinnamon, caramel, and Grand Marnier. That's what you see me seriously gnawing on in the photo. How could I help myself?

Tomorrow is the Farmer's Market in Dillon. Hopefully the sun will break up the storm clouds and give us another sweet day in the mountains.

A Swing with a View

Today's bad news: I nearly killed my mom. The good news: nearly is all the further I got. I wanted to take her on a hike at Gold Hill, which is one of the many trailheads for the Colorado Trail. It's not too far from the condo, short enough to walk to the trailhead, and I normally hike it 3 or 4 times when we come out. It's a familiar hike, and I can choose how far up I want to go. It also usually has some good wildflower fields, so I knew she would enjoy it.

When we started up, we saw several more varieties of wildflowers than I've ever seen there. I wonder if it has something to do with the new habitat in which they find themselves. The area has been hit in the last few years with a beetle infestation that is killing all of the lodge pines, and most of the pines on the lower portion of the trail have been razed. So we started with lots of oohs and "look at that one!" As we continued on, however, the oohs turned to ohs, as in "oh, I think I'm going to die." I'm willing to take my share of the blame on this one. Perhaps I over-estimated her ability. Perhaps she was a little fatigued today from our previous hikes. But the woman was really pushing herself today--trying to walk much faster than necessary, not giving herself long enough rests. I was torn between choosing to head back down and trying to force a slower pace to get her to the spot I wanted to show her. In the end, I coached her up the incline. Hopefully the exertion was worth it for her.

Just off the left side of the trail is a wonderful surprise, but it only reveals itself to the observant hiker. Some wonderful human being once felt it would be a good use of his time and energy to construct a swing made from fallen pine. As far as I'm concerned, his time was put to perfect use. The swing is perched just at the edge of a drop off that leads to a valley of wildflowers. Most of them are yellow, but today I found two lavender columbines tucked away in the midst of the golden daisies and snapdragons. The swing looks out on this valley and the mountains across Hwy 9. While mom was catching her breath on the swing, she counted 18 snow-capped peaks. I think it may have been worth it for her, but it was a little worrying to see her struggle today.

Our trip back down was really easy, as hikes usually are. We sometimes doubt that we can make it to our goal, but when we do, everything else seems so simple. Mom was beating herself up as we neared the bottom, though. She was upset about how long it took her to get to the swing. I don't know if she took what I said to heart, but I felt I was imparting some wisdom to myself: It doesn't matter how long it takes you to get there, just that you get there.

Flower Fields

Today was pretty quiet. We started with beautiful blue skies again, but as we were planning to leave for our hike, storm clouds started rolling in. This area is known for its afternoon thunderstorms in the mountains. Last year, my stepson and I got caught with the dogs in the leading edge of a storm. The hail was a little frightening, especially when we were out on open rocks, so I was a little hesitant about starting up the trail today when the thunder started rumbling. I couldn't imagine what I would do with the dogs, who would certainly protest, if I made the decision to get back into the car, so we started anyway. A few raindrops and an occasionally brisk breeze were the only unpleasant moments in our hike through the wildflower fields and Aspen stands of the Tenderfoot Trail in Dillon.

This is one of my favorite hikes. I haven't found a trail yet that yields such a stunning pallet of wildflowers. Lupines speckle the mountainside with bursts of purple and white, out in the open air. Once inside the trees, I always discover little surprises. Today we found wild roses, stunning cerise flowers peeking out from under fallen branches. I fell in love with a flower tucked in the shade called Purple Fringe. Hundreds of tiny purple flowers cluster around a central spike, and they're accented by little protruding yellow stamens. They look and feel like soft, fuzzy fur.

The flowers are not the only stunning scenery on this hike. Once at the top, we can see the continental divide, and all along the route, we have breathtaking views of Lake Dillon and the Ten-Mile Range. It's a wonderful place to breathe deeply and focus on nothing but what incredible sights nature might drop right in front of me.

Taking the plunge

I love both of my dogs, but I'll admit that Wolfie, my older dog, has always held a special place in my heart. He and I are a lot alike. We're both fiercely loyal, love being in the same vicinity of those we love, but we both can be a little prickly at times. A few minutes with Wolfie, and a new acquaintance will realize that trying to hold him is the wrong way to go. My friends joke about my inability to hug people; if I am capable of doing it, it often comes off as quite awkward. So Wolfie and I have that in common, too.

But Tippy and I have something in common, as well--something I didn't really think about before today. Tippy and I are too nervous about the world around us. If I pull out a vacuum cleaner, Tippy takes off. If I'm cooking and the food starts to sizzle, Tippy starts running. If I am presented with difficulties, I run off and hide. I recognize that I need to be less fearful, but it seems that Miss Tippy recognizes the same in herself.

We went on two hikes today. The first was a historical hike at Iowa Gulch, which was a gold mining operation. Although the various implements are showing their age, they give a fascinating glimpse into the dangerous and environmentally unfriendly gold rush days. The miners set up pipes that would capture the rush of water from the mountains, and those pipes ended in a rather fine nozzle at the end of what should simply be called a water cannon. They pointed these cannons at the earth surrounding them, and the force of the water would blast away the earth and create deep chasms that would reveal the gold underneath. It's amazing to see how trees have adapted to the earth falling out from under their feet; some have extensive root systems hanging over a precipice, virtually floating on the thin air, and yet they're strong and still growing. Oh, to be so adaptable to the shifting sands of life.

Our second hike was actually just a lovely walk around Lake Dillon. I wanted to show my mom an island on the lake that is reached by simply removing shoes and socks and walking out on a thin strip of sand that makes the water depth only a little higher than the ankles. While we were walking, I noticed a tennis ball in the water, not too far from the edge. Tippy loves playing catch, loves her tennis balls. I couldn't find any of hers at home before we left, so I intended to buy her new ones here but hadn't found any yet. I know Tippy hates water. When Wolfie goes in, she just runs along the shore to make sure he's okay. She visibly frets while he's having a swim. I really wanted her to venture out a bit, though, and go for that ball. I pointed it out to her, and she spent some time creeping out a little further, craning her neck to try and get the ball in her mouth. She finally found a way to get to it, and then she developed an interest in the water. She kept dropping the ball, letting it roll down a little hill and into the water, and then hopping in to rescue it. We took her back to the shallows near the island, and I threw the ball in the water, a little further each time. And each time, she conquered her fears and met the challenge. I think she fetched it nearly 30 times, and she was clearly proud of herself. There's a lesson in that, I think.

At last

I was thinking, "something must be wrong with me" as I reached the bottom of the 8 mile descent from the Eisenhower Tunnel today. I had not one moment of angst as I drove through the mountains. I took careful note of the semis around me (they can easily lose control down the 7% grade, so it's best to keep a good distance from them), but I didn't worry about whether their brakes would hold like I always have. We came down the mountain virtually on our own--the cars behind were well behind, as were those in front of us. I found myself weaving across the three lanes and back again as the curves presented themselves, and all I could think about were the beautiful mountains in front of us and the promise of reaching our home. I have graduated to the next level of calm, I might be able to think. But what about the fact that I thought there was something wrong with me when I didn't feel stress? That has to suggest that I still think of manic as normal and calm as abnormal. Perhaps I have more work to do.

I have no idea what we'll do tomorrow, but I'm not sure that really matters. Perhaps it's the thin air, which might create a lightheaded sensation that I mistake for joy, but this is the place where I don't worry about things. I think that makes it the perfect location for my attempts to make peace a state of mind that will travel with me beyond Breckenridge's elevation.

Stay tuned...

One state to go...

I'm not prepared to declare myself a whole new woman yet, but after my performance today I'm feeling rather confident about my ability to become one. We made it to the hotel 13 hours after we left this morning, and not only do my fingers work, but I have no tension in my body at all. I'll admit that if I did have any when we arrived, that grande margarita I downed while waiting for my carry-out order at the Mexican cantina washed the last of it away. Now that the dogs have been fed, walked, brushed and have settled down to sleep for the night with my mom, I only need to do my yoga and drift off for the night.

Maybe people won't agree with me on this, but I really think that western Illinois is lovely. Perfectly ordered rows of crops stretch away from the interstate for miles. Crossing over the state line into Iowa only increases the beauty, as the flat farmlands of Illinois turn into rolling hills. Barns, farmhouses, and grain silos add bursts of color to the varying greens of crops and grasses, and in the midst of all of this natural beauty, wind turbines tower over the landscape and gently turn in the breeze. I'm always amazed that such subtle revolutions can produce energy for thousands.

Tomorrow we'll have another 8 hours of driving, but it is always my favorite part of the drive. Western Colorado is pretty desolate, nothing more than desert, but once we reach the outskirts of Denver, the mountains begin to appear on the horizon. They seem like a trick that my eyes play on me at first. Mountains? Or simply clouds? In the end, they're a perfect combination of both. And so we drive to the clouds tomorrow...

The Journey Begins (Tomorrow)

I've been thinking about a career change for the last couple of years, and I've finally decided to take the leap. Of course, I haven't decided where I will land yet. I'm reading a lot of books lately about finding the right career path that matches my personality, and I think it's a real shame that there's no real career path for worriers. Give me anything to think about, and I'll find a way to turn it into something to fret about. If I had started on the Worry Engineer path right out of college, I have no doubt that I would now be a highly paid executive.

Tomorrow I embark on what has now become my annual 20-hour drive to my condo in Breckenridge, Colorado. People ask me every year in early June if I'm getting really excited about the trip. The simple and honest answer is no. It's not that I don't love Breckenridge. I really do. Once I'm there, I could describe myself as blissful. But before I leave, I just can't focus on what I'm going to be enjoying. Instead, I conjure up everything that could possibly go wrong (and a bunch of other things that really couldn't), and the stress builds until my back is a series of knots. I white-knuckle it out, and I don't really feel myself relaxing until I make it to the bottom of the harrowing 8-mile, 6% grade decline that presents itself at the end of the Eisenhower Tunnel. That represents about 19 1/2 hours of stressful driving.

I hate that I can never enjoy a trip. I know how ridiculous it is to be incapable of looking forward to the journey. So this year, I'm determined not to turn it into a miserable two days. I've been doing my yoga religiously in the weeks leading up to the trip, and I've been meditating to create a sense of calm. My yoga mat is already packed in the car, but I can't say that I've started out well. I'll admit to having panic flashes in the last couple of weeks. I tell myself to relax, but sometimes it just creeps up on me. So I thought a few days ago that I had already failed in my attempt to enjoy the ride. While I was washing dishes tonight, though, I felt a twinge of joy. I'm almost positive that's what it was, and it was directly linked to my thinking of being in Colorado in two days. So apparently, there's hope for me yet.

At 6:30 am tomorrow, I'll be getting into the car with my two dogs and my mom, and the journey will officially begin. When we finally arrive in Lincoln, Nebraska for the night, I'll assess myself and let you know how it's going. I'll even include a photo or two. If you don't see a post tomorrow, I'm guessing it will be because my shoulders were so tense that I've lost feeling in my fingers.

Optimism is a very tricky skill, I think...